the living room floor

I don't know whether or not I should scream in fear or run and cry over the realization that I'm leaving one of the greatest places to work for. I know it's not smart to spend the rest of my life at JBFC. I mean no one does that. Duh!! But when you work in a place that has some of the coolest people around it's one of those things were you take a step back and you wonder if you did the if right thing.

And now I'm starting to second guess myself...sort of.

No this is the right thing, but still I'm scared shitless. I want to back out, sort of. But now I know that it's ok for me to take some baby steps to England. Its ok for me to be scared. It's ok to not know what to do and to gradually get my ass to England. This has been 11 years in the making, a month or two of trying to figure things out is ok.

So now that I'm sitting in my living room floor surrounded by my office knick-knacks I know I'm going to be ok. Terrified, anxious and wanting the world but it's going to be ok.

I hope...

Who wants to pack an apartment?

Almost There

We're coming to a close, people.

I'm still sitting at my office chair but realizing that there are tons of more things to do then I expected before I leave. And all must be done by Monday morn. How the time flies. And the week is gone to crap. My love for this hang out won't be lasting too much longer. So sad.

I'm in love with my camera I think it's perfect in every little way. I can't wait till I'm taking videos and shots of new places and people. Maybe I should take some more while I can of people here.

Project runway starts tonight. Anyone going to watch? God, I'm going to miss that show when I'm away. I'll be calling home to get the 411 on all my favorite shows... however with this whole strike thing going I might not be able to watch anymore. DANG IT!!

All right, now I slowly have to take down the memories put them in a shoe box and store it in the back of my closet until I don't know when. I hate change.

The first

Work! Well technically the last week of work.

After being in Westchester for about 18 months, I have decided to do some traveling. I'm leaving my post at the Jacob Burns Film Center to see the world a little and I'm moving to London in mid-December to see what life is like out there. I want to see new things, meet new people and to get a better understanding of who I am. It's not that I hate it here but I want to give myself the chance to try something new while I'm still young and not regret ever trying.

So as of next Monday I will be unemployed packing my apartment and moving my life into 2 suitcases which will be stowed nicely away in my aunt's home in London. I've started this blog so you all can have a general idea of where I am, what I'm doing and what I'm seeing. And of course to tell me to post more often. :) But lets start off simple. I'm leaving my job this week. I need to get my UK passport in order and my apartment as well. I need to pack up each room and get rid of stuff that I don't want. Seeing it written out is a little nerve wracking but lets get through Monday, shall we.